Alloya Ye Ra Har is the spirit name of Nikki Huckfield. She is a newly recognized author, facilitator, healer, psychic and channel. She is a trained Hands on Healer with the College of Healing. Nikki is a trainer of the Weiss Transformational Healing Process, she works very closely with various energies most of which are Extraterrestrial.
The first time I met the Antari was whilst I was having a kinesiology session. Part of the rebalance entailed my having two crystals placed at my feet and head. As soon as the crystal was placed at my head, I felt movement. I felt very dreamy and was obviously in an altered state of consciousness. I felt the table beneath me move forward. Then I could see lights moving quickly over me.
Just as I thought, "Where am I?", I saw the Zeta, lots of them looking at me from a spot of light that seemed to be at the end of a dark tunnel. In my head, they said, " See, even after all this time ... you are still frightened of us". Then I lost a bit of time and the next thing I knew, I was on a spaceship. It was really real, as though I were there, physically .
I was lying down on a table that came out from the wall. Everywhere was bathed in a golden light that didn't seem to source from anywhere. It was very misty in the peripheral of my vision, and yet, I knew this was no dream.
Then I looked up to see the most amazing E.T. presence. One of the Antari stood over me. The being was made up of golden light that was made up of spinning golden molecules that resembled galaxies and solar systems that revolved around a central sun in the heart area. Its body reminded me of a praying mantis. Its head was very elongated and sat upon a long thin slender neck. It was very similar to the Zeta, but so much taller and made of a body much lighter in vibration. Its eyes were so beautiful, with a loving gaze that almost made me swoon.
With the most loving of energy, the Antari telepathically said, " Oh, you are awake. You seem to wake up more and more these days." I knew the being immediately. I felt like it was a long lost friend. I was very pleased to see it and wanted to jump off the table and throw my arms around it. Then I realised what I was there for. I looked down and I was being operated upon. I was open from throat to navel. It was a bit of a shock, I can tell you.
I watched with amazement as they took what looked like a burnt out fuse from out of my body and put a new one in. The new one had golden light inside it. They worked very swiftly because of my waking up. They seemed very pleased that even though I was experiencing what to some would be a very frightening experience, nevertheless, I was taking it on board calmly and peacefully.
They finished the operation and let me briefly look around my surroundings. It didn't look like a ship that was all mechanical, but it seemed to me that it was a place where all dimensions could be accessed . I got the feeling there were more presences around me but on a different frequency. That is all I remember of that particular experience.
The next thing I knew, I was back on the massage couch. I could see how on the third dimension I was still lying there, but on the fourth dimension, I was etherically on a spaceship.
Some months passed before I encountered them consciously again, even though I had dreamt about them frequently. Whilst sitting in my front room one late evening, they simply walked out of the wall. Three of them. They communicated information directly into my body, and telepathically explained to me that I was one of them on a higher level and that they would be working directly through me. They explained that they would not channel words so much, but would channel a new level of DNA work.
Over the next three months, I integrated my Antari self and began to align my light body into my etherical blueprint (see The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons, Part Two). The new blueprint was an improved version with new programs and devices which, when activated, allowed me to access other frequencies and energies. I could etherically see the energetic operations they performed on me.
One of the weirdest things was the way they reprogrammed the right and left hemispheres of the brain by flickering the eyes in a pattern. One eye would feel like it had moved forward in the socket, and would pulse so many times, then stop, and then the other one would do the same. It was like a code, dashes and dots, coding straight into the etherical brain.
I don't want to go into detail about the various operations, but I do want to say that I knew what was going on. It was as though I were being reminded of what I once knew.
Slowly the Antari began their work in my healing sessions with people, restructuring DNA, activating the pineal gland, and so on. They tone the most incredible tones through me, and people have been quite blown away by their energy and presence.
Even though these procedures are probably symbolic, they seem to be having an amazing result. After sessions when the Antari energy has been present, people report an increase in talents and gifts and an increase in intensity of energy. People had a sense that the Antari had such a high energy, so loving, and felt that they (the Antari) were on the level right next to God!
Realignment to Light Technology
'Realignment to light' is a light technology that works with the Antari energy to align the light body to the DNA. By harnessing the two distinct energies of the Antari, I am able to weave the two opposite energy currents into a programme that is downloaded straight into the DNA of the human body (see also 'Personal Experiences of Antari Energy'). This programme restructures the DNA, evolving it into a version of itself that can hold an increase in energy. This allows for the preparation of the light body to be layered upon the physical form.
It seems to be quite a complex procedure on the behalf of the Antari. I have seen them many times operate with amazing precision, using tools that can only be described as light instruments. They are the master mechanics of the dimensional universe. They have the ability to anchor into the body a new and improved version of itself, a light body, a body that vibrates at the speed of light. I have seen the light body transported in through a vortex of golden light into the earth plane.
The Antari operate in a dimensional globe that looks very much like an operating theatre. Whilst in this dimensional bubble, I have seen etherically the Antari use light instruments to realign the etherical matrix of the body to the light body blueprint (see also The Mission of the One Star, Part Two).
I realise that these operations are only symbolic in nature. They are occurring on a non-physical level. Yet I have seen quite clearly how a client's etherical body is open and various implants, light body fuses and such like are embedded into the etherical blueprint. I have seen the welding of what look like wires together in what look like amazing technological devices.
The Antari also clear blocks to their work, and can tone quite amazing frequencies to clear the etherical counterpart of the body.
They use my body to channel their energy. I find that there are two different energies travelling down my arms. One hand becomes the conduit of a pulsing current of energy (the binary code of the DNA programme), and the other is the instrument that enters the etherical body and rewires it to anchor the light body blueprint. I find that I place one hand on the body in particular places, mainly the head while the other hand directs the energy in. I move my hand in quite intricate movements that direct the energy into a pattern or programme that is then downloaded into the DNA. I find that their energy is very fluid, and I have to move the body in a unique dance pattern continually. It would be impossible to anchor their energies into the earth plane with out this movement of the body.
They operate on a very high frequency and working with them can be very ecstatic. They are very new to working on the earth plane.
Multi-Selves and a New Reality
There are many of us. You think there is only one version of you that exists at one time. You are mistaken. There are many, many forms, many bodies, many stories to be told. You consider there to be only one time, one life, one existence. There are many more. An image is the best way to describe to you these myriad lives. Imagine a point in the centre with lines of energy radiating from it in all directions. Each self experiences itself as the centre, but, in truth, they are all the lines of force. Each self experiences its own unique reality plane, planet, etc. Some selves even consider themselves to be the one and only self, having no conscious recognition of the other.
An angel once told me that I was to undergo a series of initiations that would ground my true essential self into my physical body. This self was composed of many different aspects. She told me that my essential self was my Spirit manifesting itself into different levels of reality. All aspects combined create 'the ONE', the essential self.
Each self or aspect introduced itself to me by using inner dialogue, visual explanation, and, later, emotional recognition. After their initial introduction, they would walk in and out of my body. Each one would bring its own lessons and tests until on one final, grand initiation that tested me to the full, my essential self integrated as one within my physical body.
Since then I have been living as 'The One Being'. I can feel their energies separate within me as well as feeling them as the one combined form, Alloya Ye Ra Har. It is quite amazing!
I can feel how each self, each programme, is designing a new self within me. I am not sure what this form will be like entirely, only that it is a new self, a combined self, a new reality. It is very difficult to write about myself in this way as it could be considered an ego trip, and, yet, experiencing myself as this integrated self, I am becoming the person I channel myself to be. If I look within me, I can see a multitude of other selves, other beings, all focusing through my physical body. It can be quite overwhelming. As separate notes, they play a symphony within me, all expressing their unique tones and harmonies.
Alloya says that I am an 'Integrated Undergraduate', an 'i-u', an 'I and you', a complete integrated being. If you like, all these selves within me are my subjects, the modules that I have to take in order to graduate from this process and move on to the next one.
I am not talking about ascension. I have never really understood the process of ascension. My understanding of what is going on is that the dimensions are merging, becoming one, becoming one, true reality. I am beginning to experience myself as multi-dimensional. It is as if there are windows into each one of the soul aspects, windows that I can peer into at any time that I am moved to do so.
For that is how it feels; it is as if I am moved by a being bigger in intention than myself. I can feel the integration of the ego. The ego is a place of habits, and, so, therefore, it still creates a reaction to true reality that is doubtful and not entirely convinced that this is really occurring. Yet other aspects of myself are totally convinced and having an amazing time.
Defining the lines, separating my realities, is becoming more and more difficult as they are organically evolving within me into something entirely new. It feels that even they do not know what this Super Hybrid will be like. For that is what I am becoming ... integrated energies within me ... unified energies ... and as this happens, I can feel the dimensions within me merging, and also becoming one.
I say I do not know what it is that I am becoming but I do know. For I have seen that new reality. I have existed there if only for a brief six days .
Whilst the process to integrate the selves occurred, I was privileged to have an experience so incredible, that even today, I find it hard to believe that I lived through such an experience. It is difficult to really remember when in the process that this occurred as the whole experience seemed to be out of my normal time. It felt like it was completely out of time, that it was in the future, the past, and the present all at once. I got the sense that it was another dimensional reality entirely.
For sometime, I had considered giving up smoking. I thought it would be too difficult and hadn't given it any really serious effort. One afternoon in late March, I sat smoking a cigarette in my front room. I thought to myself, "Oh, I wish I could give up these things."
Alloya (Spirit) said, "If you trust me and follow my guidance, I will help you give up smoking and it will be a pleasurable experience." I could feel the intensity of her intention as it seemed to ripple through my auric field. "OK", I thought, "I will." I then stubbed out the last of my cigarette.
Alloya explained to me that she would help with the nicotine cravings. She said that every time I felt the awful craving, the wanting in the pit of my stomach, I was to breathe in deeply and fully and call her energy into my body, especially in the area of my stomach. I was to let her energy take away the craving and the fear that is a usual withdrawal symptom.
So, for the first evening, every time I got a craving, I took a deep breath and called Alloya 's energy into my stomach. At first, all it seemed to do was take away the craving, but as I did this more and more, I noticed that I felt happier, more alive and energised. I was very excited about what my life would look like without tobacco, but there was something more.
Some part of me was very excited and apprehensive about something. At first I thought it was just the giving up of tobacco, but, no, it was something much bigger. There was a part of me that knew what I was heading for, and with any new experience, there was excitement as well as fear. Something of cosmic significance was about to happen. I could sense it building.
The first night passed without incident. I slept really lightly, and awoke early in the morning around an hour before dawn. As the morning light shone in through my curtains, I could literally feel something happening to me. It is very difficult to describe it in words. It was like an energy that was dormant in my body was waking up. I felt really happy. This was not my usual state of being. It wasn't a general feeling of well being but a feeling of pure happiness.
I dressed and began my day. I was aware that energy ran through my body, intense, real. My body would occasionally go into fear as the new energy entered it. My Spirit, Alloya, guided me to breathe and move in various ways to integrate the energy. For the rest of the day, I was amazed as I watched this energy journey through my chakras.
Alloya explained to me that an energy from the highest dimension was traveling through all the many layers of myself to anchor into the planet. As the energy passed through each chakra, blocks to its path would arise in order to be healed.
Now, I have experienced this type of healing before but this was going on without my conscious direction. It was literally happening to me without my control. I was aware of other lives and selves that seemed to be connected to each of the chakras. Finally, at the end of day, the energy entered my base chakra and anchored into the ground. The experience was very intense and real. As the healing of the base centre was completed, the energy subsided and the experience came to a close. I felt back to normal again, back to my usual state of consciousness. I went to bed only to get up some time later after tossing and turning, unable to shut down my mind and sleep.
You could say that it was because I craved a cigarette that I could not sleep, but it was something else. I felt that my consciousness was elevating beyond anything I had ever experienced. I felt so connected to my Spirit that I could hear her voice clearly and loudly in my head. She explained to me that I was going to have an incredible experience, that I was going to another reality.
She explained to me in detail that I was entering a level of consciousness that allowed me to move up in vibration. This elevation would allow me to dwell, if only for a short time, in a reality that was free of illusion and dense energies. "You live in a world of illusion, a world made up of belief systems. These belief systems create your world," Alloya said. " You cannot see true reality through the veils of illusion that permeate your dimension. The space that you are now entering is free of illusion."
As I entered this new reality, this New Planet, I could literally feel my negative belief systems as energy constructs leaving my body. I felt so energised and healthy. I dressed and began my day. My intuition was alive and very predominant. I could feel it clearly, guiding me to eat certain foods and drinks to aid my body in its detoxification.
All I could eat for the next seven days were pounds of bananas. Alloya explained to me that bananas were not only very good at aiding the body in its detoxification, but also held an energy that was a comfort to the body whilst it raised its vibration. This made sense to me as bananas had been a comfort food to me when I was a child. Alloya also explained that they contained high concentrations of magnesium and potassium. These minerals were brain food. I would need these minerals to balance the chemical nature of the brain whilst the pineal gland in the centre (see The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons, Part Two) was activated at a very deep level. Alloya explained to me that all humans were going to have their pineal glands stimulated, pushing them into the next level of development, aiding them to enter this new reality. I also drank pints and pints of water, flushing out my system.
It wasn't like I chose to eat just bananas and to drink so much water; my intuition demanded it. The energy of bananas was perfect for me. If anyone sat next to me eating something like chocolate, I would feel almost faint and nauseous. As soon as they moved away, I was fine. It was as if my intuition was so loud and strong that I could feel the rightness of the bananas and the wrongness of any other food substance. It was as if my auric field was responding to the energies of food . Anything that was not in harmony with me was very obvious because of the symptoms I was experiencing.
The water helped flush out the nicotine from my system. As I sat there, I could see clouds of yellow tobacco smoke leaving my aura. Every time I felt the nicotine craving, I could see clouds of smoke billowing around me. I asked others if they could see it, too, but they said they could not. I could literally see the nicotine leaving my energy body. My energy levels began to rise in intensity. With every breath, I could feel fresh and cool energy entering my body. The only way that I can describe it is as when you breathe in a strong decongestant, it makes your face and nose feel cool and tingly. This is how my whole body felt. I was so energised. I felt so fit and strong, not only on a physical level, but on the other levels too, emotional, mental, and spiritual.
Breathing seemed so important. I seemed to be able to breathe in much more air and energy than usual. You could say all of this was because I had given up smoking. but I knew it was so much more than that. This was the beginning of a spiritual experience. I breathed deeper and deeper, filling my whole body with alive and intense Prana, Life Force. Never had I felt the Life Force like this before. I had studied Tai Chi and Yoga. Breathing exercises and their affects were no stranger to me, but this was so much more powerful. It was effortless! Even if I breathed shallowly, the prana seemed to penetrate my body with such force that it began to become ecstatic.
I felt so alive. The energy was building. I felt like I did when I first fell in love with my partner. Only this time I was falling in love with myself. Every breath filled me with so much love that I began to swoon.
There is something that I need to impress on the reader. This was no ordinary experience. This was so powerful I found it very difficult to accept that it was going on. All my life, I had searched for this enlightenment, but always doubted that I could achieve such a state. Yet, now, here I stood with Spirit rushing into my body. Usually I had to meditate for some time to be able to hear Alloya's voice that clearly, but now, her voice was constant and loud. Alloya guided me through everything, what to do, why I was doing it and so on. I had so many questions, some of a personal nature, some more of a cosmic significance.
Alloya spent most of the second day talking to me, giving me lectures almost on reality and the part I played in it. I saw how reality was created and as the energy rose even more, my outside reality began to reflect my inner.
The only draw back to this energy intensity was that it made me slightly too energised. I could not sleep. This distressed me somewhat. You see, I had the tendency to be an insomniac anyway, staying awake for days. As you can imagine, it puts a strain on your sense of well-being. So, finding myself awake at four in the morning was not so pleasant.
Something else was occurring that was very different to the experiences of the daytime. Instead of being held in ecstasy, I was beginning to experience fear, a strange fear, one not dissimilar to the states I had experienced when I was an insomniac child, lying in bed, unable to sleep, imagining monsters and the such like. I felt like I was regressing back into a child-like state.
Alloya explained to me that when a higher energy enters the body, during an experience such as this, codes in the body are activated and fear comes to the conscious mind to be cleared. This was no ordinary fear. I can remember saying to myself, "It feels like there is something out there. It is big and dark and is out to get me." Even if I killed myself, it would still get me. There was nowhere to hide from it. I felt like I was being tested by the dark forces. In my mind, I was very aware that on higher levels there is no right and wrong, good and bad. Evil and dark forces were to be honoured and loved, but in this paralysing realm of fear, all my childish nightmares came back to haunt me. I spent the entire night battling with my evil, my darkness, my demons.
As you can imagine, I was very relieved to see the first rays of sunlight coming through the gap in the curtains. Alloya came back to me with such intensity that I gasped with surprise. She explained to me that she hadn't left me alone during the night, but that I was incapable of hearing her guidance clearly because of the fear I was in. The fear had clouded my reception of her voice. She went on to explain that the socalled demons were real, and the dark forces had sent them to me to test and tempt me, to challenge my perspective on myself. They had wanted me to think I was insane, or that I was experiencing some kind of mental breakdown, a psychosis. Yet even in my most awful hours of torture, I knew without a shadow of a doubt that what I was experiencing was real, true, and was a very important spiritual experience. Alloya praised my fortitude and once again I felt her love enter my body.
As the sun rose higher and higher in the sky and its rays shone into my room, I became aware of the energy that it came with it. It entered my body and I felt my vibration rise one level higher. I could feel my pineal gland activating, and as it did so, the colours changed. Colour was absolutely incredible. It wasn't like a trip where the colours are distorted and bleed into one another. They were clear, sharp, and bright. It wasn't as though my vision had changed like it does through the influence of drugs. It was like the colours had become alive. They seemed to have an inner glow. As I looked around my room, a vase of red roses grabbed my attention. The energy of the colour red was so powerful! I could feel it passing into my body, activating the base chakra to which it belonged.
Alloya explained to me that colours have this affect on us all the time, but in the veiled reality we live in, we are incapable of seeing their true iridescence. I found that as I went about my morning business, certain colours seemed to jump out at me. As I went through the day, healing the various levels of my being, certain colours would aid the healing. This was not a thought-out process; it happened spontaneously and naturally.
As I looked at the colour, I could feel its energy enter my body via the relevant chakra. Alloya explained to me that I was now entering a world of the most incredible beauty and that by paying attention to the colours that were prominent in my reality, I could breathe them in to my body and they would heal and raise my vibration.
To say I was obsessed with colour was an understatement. Every different colour gave me a different sensation and feeling. Looking around my home, finding as many different hues of colour as I could, I was amazed to see how the various colour energies affected me. Turquoise seemed to be my favourite. You see, all these energy shifts were difficult for my body to integrate on its own.
I soon found a friend in turquoise. It soothed my body and made me feel calm and safe. My energies were rising and I was beginning to feel quite speedy. When I looked at my self in the mirror, I was quite shocked at how different I looked. I was beautiful, radiant. The pupils of my eyes were permanently enlarged and deep and glossy. Other people started to comment on how I looked. Some thought I was off my head.
Later that day, I walked through the park. As I turned the corner, I came across a large bed of beautiful tulips, all of different shades of red, yellow, and purple. I saw their beautiful colours which were enhanced by the strange inner glow. I could smell them. They were very pungent and heady. Then, I heard them! I could actually hear them singing the most amazing high pitched melody. They seemed to be enjoying the sunlight, basking in it. For them, it was an almost sensual experience.
"Wow!" I thought. "They are so beautiful." The energetic response that I got from those flowers was incredible. It was as if they heard my appreciation of them and were repaying the compliment in love energy. It literally rose above them, all their colours swirling about in patterns. It flew towards me and enveloped me. My knees went weak. I sank to the ground. Their energy entered my body. I gasped for air. It was so ecstatic that I was beginning to swoon.
After some time, I rose to my feet, a little embarrassed, hoping that no one saw me. They would think I was weird. As I got myself together, I was amazed at what I could see. It is hard to explain. It was as if all the park had come alive. All the trees and flowers seemed as if they were bodies, with arms and legs and incredibly beautiful faces smiling at me. They were all smiling. I could literally see the characters of all the plants around me. It wasn't as if my eyes had distorted. I was not hallucinating. This was real. I was seeing with new eyes.
"This is incredible. It's as if I just have to shift my focus only a faction of a degree and I can see it." I thought to myself. "It is here always, just a change of focus. Change from a focus of fear, to one of love," Alloya had said. She was right. It had always been here but I was so locked into fear, into the illusion, that I could not see the incredible reality that I really do live in.
I spent the next few hours lying on the grass, breathing in the various colours. They would envelope me and soak my body in their frequency. Alloya explained to me that not only could I breathe in the colours, but I could literally breathe in any energy. I would look at a tree and breath it in. The energy of the tree would envelop and enter my body. It was totally mind blowing. I was sensing completely how it was to be a tree. It was so beautiful. I was like a child, carefree and very happy, laughing at the amazing things that were happening to me. I walked home along the seafront. The sea was awesome. I could feel the energy of the sea in my body; I could feel it ebbing and flowing within me. I could feel my self being the sea, the shore, and the love that went between them.
It was rather overpowering. You see, it was one thing imagining these types of experiences happening; it is another entirely to be actually physically experiencing them. It is one thing experiencing this sort of thing momentarily; another experiencing it constantly. My body was beginning to freak out. It was having a hard time integrating the experience. I could hear my body consciousness saying "Wow, this is really going on. I am really in another reality entirely. And it is real."
I had heard a lot about this new reality from my guides and other sources, but nothing had prepared me for this experience. It was just too incredible. Yet, it was real beyond any doubt. That was what my body was having such a hard time with. It could not come up with any logical reason for my experiencing this. Yet it was real and definitely going on. Body was amazed if not dumb-struck, in awe.
Intuition guided me, or rather propelled me home. It was as though there were a path preset for me to walk. It was as though there were a force field, running like a stream. It would come from behind and below me, enter my sacral centre, and pass out in front. It was like surfing. I could feel the energy in my body. As long as I breathed deeply and completely let go, I could surf this energy. Effortlessly, I could walk really swiftly. I did not feel any of the usual strain and discomfort you have in your limbs when pushing yourself in walking hard.
Alloya explained to me that this was how my intuition should be all the time. We usually experience momentary flashes of intuition, guiding us to go places and do things. The rest of the time, we seem to just float along and hope for the best. Alloya explained that it should be a constant source of energy that guides your every action.
It was not hard to know when I was flowing with the intuition and when I was not. The energy would drop off, just like missing the wave and I would feel like I was stumbling in my action. As soon as I relaxed, let go, and surrendered, there she was in all her glory, the river of intuition, guiding my way home. This new talent, intuition, was beginning to heighten my awareness of moving in harmony with various energies. I could feel this river of intuition moving my every movement. I could completely let go. It was as if I were in a dream. In dreams, I used to sort of hope that I would fly and I would. This was the same thing. I could run along the beach, jumping large rocks at just the right time without looking where I was placing my feet. I was divinely guided. I could not put a foot wrong.
All that day I had spent the time in nature. There was a part of me that wanted to stay out in the elements, but I could feel intuition guiding me home. My body which was beginning to show all the symptoms of a scared rabbit needed nourishment and comfort. It was all getting a bit far out for body. On a purely bodily level, I was scared and confused. Nothing had prepared me for feeling energy so powerfully in my body. I went home, ate my bananas and curled up with my turquoise jumper.
In nature, in the elements, the whole world was alive and creative. I did not expect the objects around my home to hold this energy, too. Every ornament in my front room had its own personality. I was amazed how each one held a story of its creation, purely on a physical level, the consciousness of the materials that made it up and the consciousness message that it held. Certain ones were personal to me; others held energy unique to my partner. I spent all that evening casually rearranging my ornaments, putting them in just the right places so that the energy of the room was balanced. The ornaments acted like ritualistic implements. It is very difficult to explain this, but it was like there were certain positions and angles that my physical objects needed to be in, in order to be in harmony, to influence the energy of the reality. Each object could be used in a ritualistic sense, to heal, ground certain energies, or act as focal points for contacting other dimensional beings.
When I finally placed, through intuitive guidance, the last ornament and turned it to its right direction, it was as if I had opened a door. It was a key to another level. My room, now in its right configuration, acted like a control room on a spaceship. If I moved to various areas and focused on differing objects, I could access the different energies that the object represented. Each ornament was like a transmitting and receiving device capable of receiving and transmitting messages as frequency.
Again, unable to sleep, I spent the whole evening balancing my house. It felt like, in a symbolic way, I was building my own spaceship out of my house. I could see how I was building my very own Merkabar. Again, I want to impress upon the reader that this was in no way a rationally thought out process. My intuition guided me or rather moved me physically as if I were being controlled, but in a loving way, to place my objects in just the right places.
As the sun passed beneath the horizon and darkness came on once more, the demons returned. Once again, I fought the demons. I went through level upon level of fear programming. I spent the whole night curled up in a blanket with my teddy, fearing that the darkness would take me away. Lots of belief systems came up to be viewed and healed and released.
I was skinned alive. Layer upon layer of my psyche was ripped away, exposing my vulnerability. It wasn't a fanciful thing. It felt very real. I could see dark clouds enter my room and I could feel them just as intensely as the energies of the flowers and trees. They crept inside my body, showing me all the things I loathed about myself. By day I was in heaven; by night I was in hell. There were times in the darkest hours where the dark ones almost convinced me that I was mad and what I was doing was evil. This belief came from way back in a past life when I was killed for speaking my truth. My family had proclaimed that I was evil and was doing the devil's work. They had put me to death. It was a hard fight to release all my inner fears, fears that in this incarnation I did not even know I had. With relief, dawn came. Alloya returned with the sun and the demons paled in the light. It was such a contrast of realities, one so tortured, the other just as painful because of its beauty.
Up until this point, I had spent much of my time on my own. I was so absorbed into what I was experiencing that I hadn't paid much attention to any other person. My partner was a little concerned about the fact that I could not sleep and said my eyes were rather paler in colour and I seemed a little hyper. That is all he saw. If only he knew....
I began to try and explain what was going on for me. Wow! That was a bad move. All of the energy went funny. I felt sick and he looked annoyed with me. Then, I could not believe what happened next. I thought to myself, "Does he know what is going on? Is he experiencing this, too? Is he asleep and am I awake?" He looked at me and said, " Not all of us experience the same thing. There are two perspectives here."
This immediately made sense to me. There were two realities, two perspectives here. One was of the ego and its awareness of reality in all its simplicity. And one was of soul, all knowing and divinely intelligent. It was so amazing because he or rather his ego was talking to a chat show host on the telly and wasn't really addressing me, but his words were as if they were directly from soul. He even looked like soul. I could see it looking out of his eyes. They were so deep and glossy. He had this really knowing look on his face. I expected him to wink any minute. I was so surprised I nearly squealed with delight and excitement.
I said, " God, you are incredible! How did you know to say that? Are you experiencing this, too? " Greg's ego said, confused and annoyed, "You what? What you on about? You need some sleep, you do. "
Alloya explained that ego was body orientated and very connected to the rational and the third dimension. If I talked out loud, ego heard and basically didn't have a clue as to what I was talking about. She explained that if I wanted to talk to ego, I was to talk out loud. If I wanted to talk to soul, I was to speak in the head only. " Try it," she said.
So I did. I asked certain questions in my head and the next thing he said answered them so profoundly that it was so hard to keep a straight face and not laugh and give the game away. So I started to via the conversation into spiritual discussions, giving his ego and rational mind a logical reason as to why he was talking in such a spiritual context.
It worked perfectly. It became a game between his soul and me. I would ask riskier and riskier questions and have to sit there and look at his mischievous soul whilst he answered through his unsuspecting ego. Wow, what a hoot! It was cosmically hysterical. I spent the whole morning getting to know or rather regetting to know his soul and mine. He told me all about the journey we both had together and apart. He confirmed all suspicions about past lives together as I viewed them on a etherical t.v. screen that seemed to appear to the right of my vision. It was there to show me visual images that further described the information being communicated .
Over the next few hours until sundown, many of my friends came to visit as it now was the weekend. Several of them commented about my energy and how wonderful it felt in my home. I could see how their energy interacted with each other and felt my spiritual, soul connections with each one. It was an amazing day if a little trying. It was very difficult to a) assimilate all the information which came to me via their souls, via their unknowing egos; integrate all the energy shifts that occurred in a healing capacity between myself and others; and c) experience all this and still make tea and on an ego, third dimensional level, act as if nothing out of the ordinary was going on.
As the night drew in, I was tired and scared. I began to feel really freaked out. I needed to sleep. The thought of going through another sleepless night, fighting the dark forces was almost too frightening to even think of. I was becoming confused. Maybe I was mad. If you stop and think about it, I was showing all the signs of a psychotic episode. My body was doing some very strange things. I would shake and could literally feel lumps of fear in my etherical body. It would writhe throughout me, making me feel sick. Something was brewing; I could feel it. It felt like I was in very dark space, a place where no light had ever been. Can you imagine such a place, a place so dark, so black, so completely devoid of light. I had got to the very core of my darkness. This was way beyond hell. I was so cold with fear. It was amazing. Two realities. One where I am sitting at home; another where I am in the very realms of death.
I felt like I was blind, stumbling, feeling out to find my way. The only thing to guide me was trust in myself and in the light, Alloya. I knew that somehow I had to do this alone. It was as if I were in an enormous dark cavern, cold and black. This was the densest reality there was, the home of the darkest fear and death. It was a test. I could feel that. I could feel, on the outer edges of the experience, angels watching me, waiting in anticipation to see what I would do. Would I pass the test?
This is going to sound crazy. And I don't mean this on an ego level at all as I do understand that what I experienced was symbolic. I was taking the light, the light of truth into the darkest place in the universe. I was taking the light that had been downloaded to me via the sun in the daytime, taking that light to the densest place, the home of Lucifer. Now I don't want to get all Bible-y on you as it was my only way of understanding what was going on. I knew the story of Lucifer and Alloya used the stories I already knew to aid me in my understanding because I needed to understand and understand quickly. He was coming.
I can't say that I physically saw him; I didn't need to. Feeling him was quite enough. The fear was impressive. My body shook and I involuntarily made this strange pining sound like an animal does when it's really scared and I couldn't stop making the sound. He filled the entire room. It felt like I was going to die which was scary in itself, but what was more scary was that without the beliefs of my body that said this was delusional, I feared that Lucifer would devour me. There is a well known saying that when you are at the bottom of the pit, that is when you find God. I was on the edge like I had never been before. This was one hell of a test. It felt like not only did my life depend on my success, but symbolically the success of New Planet Reality becoming real for everyone in the future was on my shoulders. Near to annihilation was how it felt. I had no where left to turn. I had to face him. So, face him I did.
The most incredible thing happened. I saw him as God. It was so simple. If everything is God, then so is fear. I felt the love. It was pure, mine, mine to give, my divinity. Not only did my soul face and love its enemy, but so, too, did my ego. We embraced lovingly on an energetic level. I had succeeded. Alloya explained to me that I had anchored the light into the darkness and now, in time, New Planet Reality would manifest for all. The process complete, the angels began to sing. I could hear them. The sun of another day rose in the sky. (See also 'The Fallen Angel' Mission of the One Star, Part Four.)
I had a new vigour that came with my success. I could feel this incredible power entering my body. Light filled my body. I spent the next few days walking in nature. It was a beautiful. The springtime sunlight was bright and intense. Everywhere I went, I could read the story of the landscape. Everywhere held energetic stories of things that have gone on there before, not only in the third dimension and history, but on all the other levels, too.
I was experiencing myself as God, an intrinsic part of all creation. I could feel the consciousness of all the elements around me moving through my body. The awareness of my aura grew and grew. I stood at the seaedge, feeling my aura growing so large that it was starting to incorporate all of the planet . It was at that moment that I passed out.
When I came to on the beach, Alloya said, "It is time to go home and to sleep." I went home and later that night I took a sleeping tablet. You may ask why I didn't take one before. I couldn't allow it in my aura. Now, at the right time, it was appropriate and finally I fell asleep after six days of no sleep whatsoever.
I awoke the next day, a little worried it would all be over. I needn't have worried. The colours were still vibrant and alive. Alloya explained to me how I was God and created all that I could experience, even the people in my life. She showed me in no uncertain terms just how powerfully we create our reality. Without the restrictions of time in this dimension, manifestation was instant.
I thought whilst walking on the beach with a friend, " I feel so overly sensitive today. The worst thing that could happen now is if a gang of football hooligans were to come round the corner. I think I would pass out." Just as I said it, this gang of about six boys all in football kit, kicking a can, singing football songs, came around the corner. Both my friend and I looked on in on in disbelief. "You made that happen," said my friend. This was getting to be a big responsibility. I needed to go home and sleep some more. I was really feeling the strain on my body.
Alloya explained to me that I would, over the next few days, come down in vibration to reenter the reality from whence I came. That I would forget I was God. That it didn't matter because I would have grounded the blue-print of New Planet Reality into the potent soil of Gaia, Mother Earth (see The Mission of the One Star also The Mission of the One Star, Part Two, 'The Blueprint'). I can remember laughing, thinking it would be fun to go back and pretend I was not God anymore..
For the next three years, I had to integrate the experience. It was incredibly painful on many levels. I thought I had gone mad but the truth monster would not allow me to settle with that. It felt so untrue. It was a spiritual experience. I knew it without a shadow of a doubt and that hurt. It hurt because I was not in that reality anymore. I cannot begin to tell you how painful it was for me. There were times when I considered taking my own life. When you take an experience or rather an energy so high and powerful such as I had done into your body, you cannot expect anything less than what I went on to experience, great pain, great sorrow, great loss and a great yearning to go Home.
For I am not from this planet or any other like it. I am from a dimension that does not even exist in our referencing. So to be in that reality and to be brought back into an denser reality was very distressing for me. However, now as I look back, I can now see how all the pain was a necessary healing and integration process. I am beginning to see how I never really left New Planet Reality but integrated it into a denser form. I am waking up in the densest dimension. Spirit in physical form.
As Alloya Ye Ra Har I am here and here is where ' I AM.'
Many of you are experiencing beings outside of yourselves that you consider higher in form to you and in need of your worship. You do not need to worship aspects of yourself. Do you understand the nature of your reality? It symbolically represents energies in physical form. When you encounter beings from other realms, they are only other aspects of yourself. As the dimensions merge within your physical form, you will experience yourself as these beings. For on the other levels, we are all ONE.
Do not be surprised if the guides you encounter are the wiser aspects of your very own soul. Instead of giving your power to these projections or self worshipping them, bring their energy into your body as your own. Begin to see without any form of separation and the integration of these selves will be greatly enhanced.
ALLOYA YE RA HAR
The following is a mixture of personal experience and information regarding the integration of the multi-selves. (See also The Mission of the One Star, Part One and 'Multi-Selves and a New Reality'.)
So, what is a multi-self ? On the highest level of who you are, you are one whole being, you are God. You are an aspect of the UNIVERSAL DREAMER expressing itself through the myriad dimensions. This Oneness, this aspect of God, expresses itself through the multitude of dimensions that make up infinity. There are infinite amounts of expressions such as this available to a being. So, as you look into the details of who you are on this high level, you see that you are made up of a multitude of expressions. Each expression, each self, carries an aspect of the greater being that you are. So, can you see that you are made up of many stories all going on at the same time? You are indeed a Super Hybrid, a being made up of many.
I, Alloya, I am the Oneness. In my myriad expressions, I am many things. I have an infinite amount of expressions, some physical, others without shape or form. Some of my expressions are so abstract that human minds would be stretched to imagine them. You could say that I am a Super Hybrid and so are you.
If you are reading this, you are at the level where you are beginning to become aware of the integration of the multi-selves. Before you embark upon your adventure, there are certain principles that you would do well to follow. Throw out your ideas of separation and view everything and everyone as a mirror expression of who you are. Do not search for answers through the rational mind, but through the imagination and intuition. Integrate the beings that you work with; look at them as if they are not separate to you and you will be amazed at what occurs. We are calling you to a point in time where you will integrate, fully, all levels and move back into the Oneness of who you really are.
It is not mine to say that each and every one of you will experience the integration process in exactly the same way, for each self is uniquely creative. What I can say is the energy that brings this integration of the selves is a divine, evolutionary force that moves through the dimensions. It is a creative spark that triggers movement in the evolutionary path of species. These forces move as waves through creative forces that belong to your planet and activate within the DNA dormant codes designed to fire off at this time in your history. This pulls all the multi-selves into a dimensional reality where they can merge and become one.
Your planet is holding this frequency for you, to support the integration of the selves. This is why your world is so important. It is the only place where you can achieve this full process and yet stay in human physical form. What a uniquely creative process!
It would be wise at this juncture to ask you to refer to the text contained in the first part of the book, The Mission of the One Star, Part One, ' Power and the Unification of the Multi-Self'. Part Two of the book takes you on a journey through the various levels all the way back to the UNIVERSAL DREAMER. It gives you the flavour of what the other realities have to offer and the type of communication you can experience of these other dimensions. It also introduces you to the energy of the various twelve selves that the channel is aware of integrating. It is as if you are getting to know the various selves that make up a hybrid. This is meant to allow others reading this to tune into their own integration process. For there is nothing like personal experience to awaken others to their own expression of this evolutionary process.
For years I wanted to write down my experiences, but I found it almost impossible due to the fact I was still physically integrating my selves. Now, I can get it in order on paper as I get it into order within myself. I am balancing these selves within me and allowing their talents and abilities to channel through me as my own gifts. I am now ready to tell my story.
It all started with Shektar, my guardian angel. Shektar told me that I was to undergo a series of initiations that would ground into my physical body my Super Hybrid self, my multi-selves. Each of these selves or aspects of my greater self introduced itself to me through using inner dialogue, visual explanation, and as the integration proceeded, emotional recognition. Through my interaction with each self, I learned about the beings' history, where they came from, what type of being they were, and how they experienced their reality. Each self seemed to be unique in their gifts, talents, and abilities. After hours of channeling their energies, I began to see how unique and yet how integrated they all were.
After their initial introduction, they would, over time, walk in and out of my body, each experience bringing its own tests and lessons. The lessons would manifest in my outside world. My friends and those around me would seem to play out symbolic type scenarios in order for me to learn more about each aspect. My friends would seem to represent one particular aspect of self, so that I could see myself mirrored in them. In the early stages of this process, I thought I was going mad. Yet curiosity took over and I threw caution to the wind and surrendered to what was occurring.
The lessons came in many different forms and all sorts of situations began to manifest in order for me to learn what I needed to learn. If no one was around to be a mirror for me, then the television and music was the next best thing. I would be having a conversation with one aspect, and the next minute, a lyric in a song I was listening to would answer any question so perfectly, I would laugh out loud. Newsreaders would almost look as if they were going to wink any minute to give the game away.
That's what it felt like, a game, a very funny cosmic joke. If we are God, then we are everything, and everyone and I was being shown just that in my outside reality. I wanted to jump up and down and tell everyone what I was experiencing, but much to my horror, they did not have a clue what I was talking about. I was alone in this. Was I mad?
I investigated this phenomenon and discovered how there are many levels of perception on which to operate. On the level of most human beings, magical, spiritual occurrences such as I was experiencing were either not real or were evidence of insanity.
Surrendering to the madness, I soon discovered that each self 's initiation lead naturally on to the next. I was healing various levels of my being as each self took me through a period of lessons and tests. On completion of each set of lessons, the self would walk into my body and stay and integrate itself into my physical form. I would go through an intense period where my conscious awareness would be shared with this new and unique aspect.
Each self had its own unique way of looking at reality, its own perception, and a unique way of experiencing itself. We played together and shared each other's experience. Each self had a vibration frequency on which it operated. Some of the aspects seemed to work very much on the spiritual levels; others on the mental, emotional, and physical. Some operated on a combination of all four. Each self brought with it talents and abilities that manifested mainly in my healing work and my everyday interaction with those around me. Each self upon completion would bring in its own colour ray that it worked upon. For that period I would be obsessed with the colour, seeing it everywhere I went. This helped my body familiarise itself with the frequency of that particular aspect. I learned a very deep level of information about colours and how they affect my being.
As I integrated more selves, I began to see a pattern forming. The first stages of the process were the introductions on a spiritual and mental level. Then, later on, came the emotional and physical level. It was at the stage of the physical body level that I began to become uncomfortable.
I was shown that the best way to integrate these energies was to dance. This allowed the energies to flow naturally around my body. Each self had its own dance and movement. By surrendering to their energies, I was amazed to see myself dance intricate hand movements. It felt like I was weaving new patterns into my auric field, new patterns that would allow the next self to layer itself upon.
As the process proceeded, I realised that each self correlated with the chakra system and even though they all encompassed the whole system, they seemed to relate to one particular chakra. By using particular breathing techniques and by focusing on the various centres, I could activate the self.
I soon found that I was automatically calling upon the appropriate self whose talents were perfect for the situation I was in. Each self lead on to the next as I watched the original idea of myself start off from the highest level, the level of Alloya, through the many levels to manifest finally on the densest, in the centre of the planet.
On completion of the integration of each self, I would be given a gift that somehow represented the particular self's energies. I would place this in a special place in my healing room. It was only when all my selves were complete did the story of their making come through me.
I was given a brief story for each one, symbolic story to represent the various dimensions and the selves that lived upon them. I feel that in story form their true natures are revealed. I hope you enjoy their stories as much as I have had living them.
The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons
In the beginning there was only darkness, a velvety void that held an unlimited, an undefined potential. The void lay sleeping, unaware that it could dream, that it could be. There was no direction, no movement, no limits, no boundaries. The omnipotent omnipresence lay unconscious, unaware of itself. From this nothing, this void, this nagual, came the ALL THAT IS, all that can be named.
The void began to stir. No one really knows why or how, but one day the void had a thought, an inspirational idea. This idea created sound and out of this sound and movement came an inspired spark of light, a mighty nucleus, and an awesome star was born, The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons, each moon being a dimensional universe of realities.
For the first time in the void, out of the nothing, came something. The void recognised itself dreaming and for the first time this awesome force knew itself as the UNIVERSAL DREAMER. With a point of light in a sea of darkness, there was now a reference point. The UNIVERSAL DREAMER gave this Star the ability to create. Out of this Star, individual beams of light were sent into the darkness. These beams went out and created more of itself and Alloya Ye Ra Har was born. Her light spiraled and wove intricate patterns in the darkness
The presence of the Star seemed to be around me a lot during this period of the integration. I had a constant strange buzzing in my ears. Or was it my whole head? I didn't know. I felt strange. The most amazing feelings would subtly ripple through my body. It was a strange sensation, very alien and foreign to my body. It was oddly pleasant.
I would be sitting at home when it would come into the room. The light would go very funny and the hairs on my arms would stand on end. I would feel very 'not of this earth'. My perception would change. I was accessing some incredibly high being or beings. I was not sure.
As they drew their consciousness and mine closer together, the strange code in my head began to unfold. It is hard to describe the state of consciousness I was in. I felt like all my thoughts had calmed to the point of stillness, and that my awareness of myself was purely automatic. I felt very calm, and yet my breathing was shallow and fast. I seemed somehow unattached from my body and its breathing. I felt really dreamy and my eyes were very off-focused and I had very large pupils. Words began to form but they were too fast to comprehend. I could literally feel it trying to tune into me more and more. I was aligning myself to it.
One night, I sat down and started to write, 'What am I?' page, and I wrote the first thing that came into my head, The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons. The very next night my friend loaned me a computer and the very next day, I started to write. The opening lines were," Hello and greetings Gaian beings. We have been waiting a long time to communicate to you. You might be thinking, 'Who are we?' We are imagination in its first form. We are the energy behind the urge to look into the unknown. We are the curiosity behind the need for wisdom. We group together as a Soul consciousness. We channel through the manifestation of a focal point that can best be symbolically described as a Star. The energy from the Star illuminates a thousand moons of imagination." They were The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons.
Months went by. Literally every evening they would come, and I would find myself writing until the early hours. The information was incredible. They explained how they were a group, a collective consciousness. "A collective consciousness is a group of beings or energies that come together, and in their interaction, they create a being or entity that is made up of many. Yet it experiences itself as one singular identity. We become the 'I' and individualise our being when relating to you."
Over the weeks of writing, we covered many topics. They talked about how they were a vector, "a vector is a coming together of energies in a harmonious, creative and transformational way to create a force that has magnitude and direction." They helped me understand how they were like a chakra in the body of God. They communicated pictures to me to help me understand more fully. They talked in some detail about the nature of the universe and consciousness, and how our DNA was transforming us into light.
I was not shocked by anything that I wrote as it all seemed like I already knew it, even though I knew that I didn't. They covered information about how their energy affects our planet and how they were dreamers dreaming our existence. They talked about E. T.' s and about how they lived on different frequencies. They talked about how I was one of these beings incarnate in human form. I knew that was true. They talked in detail about the mechanics of the transformation of the cells of our bodies. They talked about the other dimensions and how we have an aspect of ourselves on each one. This made sense. I was both Shektar and myself. They were different 'me's' on other dimensions. As well as writing the information, I was given pictures and feelings in information to enable me to fully understand what they were talking about.
Some books talk about how we all have a Spirit name that describes our true nature. I knew some people who had changed their names to their Spirit name and it had brought them both liberation yet it had also ultimately made them social outcasts. Nevertheless, I wanted to discover mine. I decided that I would set to it that very next day.
I didn't have to wait that long. I was listening to some amazing techno music when this sound came from nowhere. As it began to slow down, I realised it was words. Then all of a sudden the words became clear. It was my name, "ALLOYA YE RA HAR." I wrote it down and said it out loud. In that moment, I knew that I was the Star and its name was Alloya, my Spirit.
Then the communication became crystal clear. I heard this voice loud and strong. "If you break up her name, her message is revealed. 'All-o-ya'... 'all of you' ... 'Ye' is old English for 'you' ... 'Ra' means 'to radiate', and 'Har' means 'life force'. Alloya Ye Ra Har, all of you, you radiate life force." The voice went on to explain that she was my complete aspect of myself on all levels. She holds within her all my aspects. She is a focal point in the body of God. She is my aspect of God. My ' I AM'.
Alloya has many forms on many levels. A few images spring to my mind to describe her energy. One is a great Star of all the colours of the rainbow, vibrant and pulsating, radiating energy into the darkness of space. Surrounding it, there are a thousand moons that stretch into infinity in all directions. Each moon looks like a shiny, reflective metal ball, reflecting the colours of the Star.
The Star expresses itself as one being, as Alloya, in order to communicate and interplay with you. She radiates lines of herself as starlight to criss-cross upon the surface of the moons. As these lines criss-cross, individual focal points are created. Each one experiences itself as individual, and yet each point is also part of Alloya, the Oneness. They experience themselves as many different levels of awareness and transfer their information of experience back to Alloya and, thus, back to God.
The voice went on the say that I was a Super Hybrid that was made up of twelve aspects, from twelve different places in the universe. If I were to draw a line from each of these places into the middle, they would cross to form a six-pointed star.
Another image that can describe her is the image I saw in the mirror. "Who am I and what does my Spirit look like?" I asked one day. I was totally amazed at what I saw forming in the mirror. My face completely changed until I could see a beautiful yet terrifying face looking back at me. I was not human, but extraterrestrial. Large almond shaped eyes seemed to penetrate me to the core of my being ... a strange elongated head ... bald with shimmering scales that seemed to cover my entire face. They were iridescent. As I looked closer, I could see an intricate nervous system just under the skin that seemed to have light traveling along it.
The being that I was seeing was awesome. As I stood there, my Spirit communicated straight into my body information that would later surface to guide me along my journey. I realised that what I was seeing was a symbolic image to describe and explain my spiritual nature. It took me some time to pull myself from the mirror, my body strangely excited and scared all at the same time. That was the beginning of my journey.
My rational mind went into overload. "It's just a hallucination, a good one but only a hallucination," it kept saying over and over again. It was the only way I could handle it. You see, I had seen things before, but they weren't real and I knew it. This, however, was very different. You see I had inklings that I was somehow not human. It sounds crazy because I have a very average human body but my Soul is very different.
When I was a small child my Mother would find me sitting on my window-sill in the early hours of the morning, looking out at the stars. "That is where I really live," I replied when my Mother asked me what I was doing. I always had the idea that I was from another place or planet, a place that was very different to the one I now inhabited. My home was made of light, and was so full of love, that planet Earth seemed cruel and devoid of love. I found it very difficult to exist in this world.
I was a very sensitive child; I could pick up on much different energy and could communicate with Faeries and the energies of the trees. As I grew up, I felt very out of place, as if I didn't belong. I had a strange yearning to be somewhere else. This caused me lots of pain as I grew up.
As I entered my teenage years, I had painfully learned that it was easier on the psyche if I closed down my sensitivity and protected myself. Looking at the face in the mirror only confirmed my suspicions that I was, in fact, an alien. Can you imagine what that does to the many levels that make up the self? I am sure that without the love of this being, my body would have frozen in fear at the prospect of realising that it was housing a completely alien soul.
I was excited and scared. My rational mind was totally confused and kept hiding beyond my impeding doubt. However, within the chaos of all these mixed emotions, I was overwhelmed by the response of my heart. It literally sang. Tears flowed down my cheeks, tears of joy, tears of knowing. I could not deny its message. It rippled through my very being. It was real and it was true. I was from somewhere else, somewhere far away.
Alloya showed herself to me in this form to make me curious as to where I got such almond shaped eyes. She was made up of many different aspects. These characteristics led me to discover all the many selves that make up Alloya. Her energy was all consuming for me. Electrifying energy ran up and down my spine. The integration of her took many months and was one of the hardest aspects to integrate.
Issues of being separated from my true source, God, were very much up for me. The lessons to heal through were about loneliness and isolation, feelings from childhood. She was very difficult to integrate into my physical body. I found that to break through the blocks to her energy, I had to tone high-pitched sounds and later to tone her name. This left me feeling shaky and emotionally heightened. Tears of loneliness overwhelmed me.
She gave me a sense of self beyond the mundane physical realm. I had to widen my perspective to encompass the idea that I was an aspect of God. I was a universal entity experiencing itself on many levels.
I was introduced into my magnificence and allowed to see the world and its reality through eyes that were far above ideas of judgement and beyond polarities. I began to understand from this high perspective my true purpose of being here on this planet.
Alloya taught me how to honour my true nature and feel and take on my highest power and learn to use discernment in the way I lived my life. She taught me the true meaning of life and death and allowed me to truly feel the eternal nature of my soul.
Sharing my consciousness with this allknowing, omnipresent entity allowed me to see with new eyes. Alloya gave me a trust in God and the universe. She showed me my true nature as herself, and this allowed me to know myself as God.
The Creator, Alloya Ye Ra Har, lay dreaming and in her dreaming she wandered into as yet an unformed part of creation. At first it was all-dark. As the creator opened her eyes, the light that shone from within shone out into the darkness, forming two mighty stars.
They were Astrata and Astrea; their love warmed the darkness. They watched with curiosity as the worlds formed around them. As galaxies were born and planets formed, Astrata and Astrea watched and waited. They watched as worlds created new potential, new beings, new experiences.
One such experience was the union of love to create a third, the child. They pondered the possibility of their performing such an act that would create a child from their union. They realised through their observation that in order to create such a being, a little of them would have to be given as a sacrifice in the name of their love. Separating from themselves created an incomplete feeling within them.
At first they were content to bathe in each other's light. Now, they yearned to be with each other once more. Their yearning to be with each other, their movement, created a magnetic force, polarising them into positive and negative forces, spiraling them into a vortex of love.
In the dance of their love, the energy swirled around them, creating movement and sound in creation. Their light reflected patterns of light and sound and form. Within the spirals of love, the gifts they had given combined to create the third, the child, the star child.Astrata gave of his positive vibration and Astrea gave of her negative vibration. This combined male and female created the child. As they watched with awe, the blending of the colours, the blues and the greens, swirled around and back upon themselves. They were amazed to see the glistening of a new colour, the silver of the child.
Within this grand display, an exquisite sound could be heard. From the spiral of Astrata, the sound whispered out the song he had given as his gift; from the spiral of Astrea, the song, thunderous and loud. The beauty of the colours and the wonders of the sounds began to form the child, Astara.
At first, she resembled her parents and the energies of love they had given. She was a Star in a double spiral of sound and colour. Using her rainbow mind, she pondered, as had Astrata and Astrea once before her, about the possibility of her creating a world, too. As her parents had done before her, she split a part of herself away as a gift and sent it to create a New World.
As the gift which resembled a spark of light fell into time and creation, it landed and solidified, forming a bluey-green sphere of blissful love. Astrata looked upon her newly formed creation and great love filled her heart. She watched in awe as the essences of love formed the beautiful sphere of light and sound. As she watched, a thought began to murmur through her mind. "What was it to be named?" "Unesseia," was the reply.
Astrata, Astrea and Astara. These aspects are integral parts of each other. Astrata, male energy, and Astrea, female energy, combined make Astara. They are representatives of the Antares star system. They are light beings, the consciousness of the stars themselves. They are my Stellar Source. They feel like they come from the future. They are what I will become in another existence. They have an understanding of the intricately complex matrix, which is our universal dimensional reality. They are universal consciousness. They represent the light body which is the vehicle into which we are transforming in order to travel through different dimensions.
Sharing myself with this consciousness was very unique. They showed me where I really sourced from in this universe, and gave me a base from which I began my journey as an experimental Soul. They gave me access to my greater self. Having a new perspective, allowed me to see beyond judgment to the many layers that are our relationships. They taught me how to align to my light body and also realign others to theirs. To do this, I had to dance intricate patterns with my arms and hands. I could literally weave new patterns into the etherical body, aligning the body to light.
They had visited me, or rather I had visited them, way back in the early part of my journey. However, it was much later that I met them again and forged a new relationship with them.
Several years previously, I had been lying on a couch having a kinesology session. The woman had placed a crystal at my feet that instantly made me feel incredibly heavy. She then put a beautiful crystal at my head. I closed my eyes. I could feel the couch moving as if it were a hospital trolley. I saw lights pass over my head. I thought, "Where on Earth am I?".
I saw Zetas in the distance. Then I was on this operating table. I was on a ship. I wanted to have a look around but a being (Astrata) telepathically said, "You are not supposed to see this. You are supposed to be asleep on this level." The being seemed so familiar and loving even though it had an enormous head and an almost praying mantis type body!
I looked down and could see that I was being operated upon. My etherical body, at least I think it was, was open its whole length. They were taking something out and putting a new part in. The parts looked like fuses. The new one going in was glowing with light. The whole experience was so real (see also 'Realignment to Light Technology'). Yet it was much later in my journey that I came across these beings again.
They are a navigation system which is contained within my DNA and light body. The light body is a higher vibration representative of the DNA chains. The highways of light that I see as the DNA spirals link all of God's creation as one.
They give me a unique awareness of my place in the universe and to my Stellar Source. Seeing myself as a greater whole enabled me to free myself from the feelings of isolation that had hindered me all my life. I came to know them as my true Home selves.
Living out of the realms of time showed me how to use this level of imagination to travel interdimensionally. They taught me how to align my light body and integrate my light body which is a spiritual blueprint of a future vision. They taught me how to rewire the etherical body to align the light body. To do this, I dance intricate hand movements, programming energy directly into the DNA. I was able to remove dark karmic patterns that resembled dark, cloudy masses within the etherical body. I began to see through their eyes which saw throughout the whole of existence.
Unesseia was a translucent bluey-green sphere, the heavenly home of the stars. Upon this sphere lived an ancient race of beings, ethereal in nature, called the Unessei which means 'unified essences'. They lived a transient existence, expressing themselves as separate non-physical entities for only a short length of time before they returned to the singular all encompassing energy of their home.
They created themselves as thoughts, thoughts of their sphere. They differentiated and transformed themselves into exemplar entities existing as transparent images of forms, using light that radiated from their source, the Star. They only existed as ideas, ideas as living light patterns. Their urge to create these forms was sourced from the sphere itself. The sphere is the representation of the energies of the urge to create through love.
The sphere, like the beings that dwelt upon it, were etherical in nature. It once was a thought, an idea which crystallized into a denser light pattern which appeared like a misty crystalline structure. The geometric pattern held the sphere in form and allowed the unmanifested entities to manifest and appear in this ethereal dimension. The entities or ideas were the direct creation of the sphere and the sphere was the direct creation of the Star, the original idea.
For aeons they lived on the sphere, emerging and remerging themselves with the sphere over and over again. For aeons they lay sleeping, dreaming in their crystalline realities. One day, it occurred to them that in order to evolve, they would have to create a new type of being. Giving a small part of themselves, they fused and melded their love energies and with a surge of intention they created a being consistent with their awareness and feelings. Iteesha was her name.
One beautiful night I was privileged to go Home. I lay back on some cushions and closed my eyes. The energy around me swirled and moved me out of my body in spirals. I left the planet and traveled fast into the darkness of the universe. Moving further and further from Earth, passing through star gates that were strangely familiar, I knew that I was no longer in the same dimensional reality as the universe I was used to experiencing.
Before me in the darkness was my Home. It was a bluey-green Sphere of light. I cannot describe the feelings of recognition and love that I had for this place. I was finally Home. As I approached, the strangest thing happened. I totally merged with the Sphere. I was made of the same substance and was totally one with it. I learned that the beings on this Sphere were an ancient race of beings, ethereal in form. They were totally one with their Home, only emerging in temporary form to dive within once more.
Finding the true Source of my Soul, my true Home Sphere, was both a liberating and painful experience for me. The emotions and vibratory rate of the Sphere was almost too overwhelming. Every breath I took sent waves of energy washing over my body. I cried out in pain. I was dropped into a conscious awareness of what it was like to be a swirling mass of colour, light, and sound. The energies swirled and twisted constantly. With every movement, it rippled out into my auric field. The whole experience moved me to the very depths of my emotions. I was totally unaware that I was capable of such deep feelings. I could experience myself as a substance that was capable of shimmering through other bodies like cosmic wind. The sensations this produced were truly amazing.
Working with this aspect was an opportunity for me to experience more, and learn about what I really was. It was a very challenging time for me, having to heal out issues that were not only connected to my Soul's wounds, but also corresponded with the issues in this earthly lifetime. I could literally see my personality changing, becoming released from fear and gaining a sense of self-love.
Up to this point, it was only me who had these experiences. No one else had experienced my being any different. At this time, I was very frightened to show it to anyone. A number of fears prevented me from sharing myself. I was afraid that it was all in my head, and that no one else would experience it. I was afraid that they would reject me. This was a wound currently in my personality, an ingrained fear of rejection.
One evening, whilst dining with a friend, we got on to the subject of what we thought we were on a soul level. I explained to her how I thought I was not human on a soul level and, in fact was an alien. She said, "Show me." Afraid to show the whole room, I told her to come into the kitchen, where I would show her. My friend and I stood looking at each other in anticipation. "OK," I said.
I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply. The fear was uppermost. Then, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, my aspect appeared. I opened my eyes and peered out. My friend stood looking in disbelief, amazed at what she saw. Then I saw the realisation flick across her face. "Oh my God!" she cried. "She really is an alien. " She went to cry out in fear just as I reached out to her heart and whispered, "Please." She overcame the initial response of fear and gazed with tears running down her cheeks at me as my E.T. self looked out of my eyes.
The energy was too much for me, as was the love I experienced in those moments. My friend and I will never forget it, the first time I had the courage to show my true self. Over the next few months, many of my closer friends who were open to see saw my Soul looking out with alien eyes. There was confirmation from every angle. I could no longer deny who I was.
Months drifted by whilst I came to terms with my find, and slowly I gained the courage to explore this new concept. I began to open up myself to the energies of this new Soul aspect. The information flooded in; concepts on God, the universe and everything seemed to flow in on this new energy. I
began to write, keeping a complex journal that only I could understand. Anyone else reading it would think it was the journal of a madman.
You see writing had always been my passion, and, as of late, I had begun to explore poetry. The poems just seemed to flow from me in one stream of consciousness. They were beautiful; they talked about other worlds. I used this medium to express the overwhelming feelings of sadness that I had about being here and not being on my sphere of love.
I must admit I was slightly melodramatic. From a higher perspective I can easily see that I perpetuated my pain. The pain was sweet and writing reams and reams of poems expressing how I felt seemed to be the most creative thing to do. It helped me really get in touch with this aspect of my higher self. I would call her down by sending my intent up into the stratosphere. I would feel her arrive from a great distance, and with a 'whoosh' of energy, she would enter my body for only a matter of seconds. Yet that was enough.
She would move me to tears, the energy rushing up and down my spine. It was strange; it was both painful and ecstatic. My body would respond to her in a very strange way. I would get the overwhelming urge to make sound. I began to tone the most incredible tones. They were incredibly high pitched and dynamic, nothing like the tones I had heard at toning workshops. In the workshops, it seemed as though people were holding predetermined notes that were at the usual pitch of their voice. These were different. They were almost like dolphin sounds but much higher, far out of the range of my usual singing voice.
As I experimented with this new talent, I realised that I was actually communicating in a strange and alien language, a language that only I could understand. I would sit in my room for hours making these tones, much to the annoyance of my husband. It was very painful, the yearning growing and growing. I felt so alone. As I aligned more and more with this being of self, I felt less and less earthy and more, well, extraterrestrial.
Working with this aspect was a very liberating thing for me to do; it seemed to answer so many of my questions such as "Who am I?" and "Where do I come from?" I was beginning to really see who I was. Her visits to me became more and more frequent, the channels opening, more communication coming in with much more clarity. Slowly, my discoveries started to make sense, filling in more and more gaps.
My communication with Shektar waned at this time due to my fascination with my Soul aspect, and yet, through it all, I could feel her loving embrace protecting me and supporting me. I had yet another new friend. Working closely with my Soul aspect I realised and remembered information about my Soul. It mainly came in pictures, visions, and feelings. Through these pictures, I learned that my home planet's inhabitants were called the Unesseia, Unified Essences.
They are the origins of my beginning as a perceivable entity, my true Soul Source. My Home Sphere is the place in the universe that I can call Home. This self is the original self, the blueprint (see The Mission of the One Star, Part Two. 'The Blueprint')which is the framework on which all the other selves were patterned upon.
The Unesseia exist on a dimension that is only just perceivable to our senses. You could say they are a thought. If a thought were physical, then that is what they are. They are an intrinsical part of the Sphere. They are multi-dimensional; they can access information from both the past, present, and future.
Sometimes, on a beautiful day whilst looking at the bluey-green of the sea near my home, I would get a sense of their presence, unmanifest, non-physical and invisible to me, yet real nevertheless. They are a very lone expression of entities. I get the feeling that they experience themselves as contained within the realms of their Sphere. Whilst visiting their realm in my imagination, I discovered that they resemble the misty blues and greens of their Sphere. It is as if they are vapours. They do not form into one set form, but change and transform constantly. They take on vague bodies, sometimes resembling humanoids.
Whilst working with them, I noticed a strange thing. They seemed to enter my reality through a centre based a foot to two feet above my head. While I was meditating upon this centre or chakra, a sphere not unlike my home would appear above my head. I would reach up with my consciousness and activate the centre. Bliss would flow down into my body. I just had to surrender to their energies. I would feel this free falling sensation. Opening this chakra seemed to send me in a new direction of fascination, the fascination with colours. Working closely with the bluey-green ray, I was totally amazed by the vibrations of colours.
The loneliness that I felt in this stage of my life was very overpowering. I really thought that I was somehow lost, out of place. As I used to say to my best friend, it is as if I came here on holiday and missed the bus home. I felt abandoned and forgotten. Were their any others like me with this strange notion that they were aliens?
Spirit had obviously heard my cries for help. Soon after, I found myself sitting down in front of a video by Extraterrestrial Earth Mission. They were a group of Americans who considered themselves to be E.T. incarnate. I couldn't believe it when I read their literature. They were basically saying all that I had learned over the past few months.
They start to tone, drawing in and channeling their what now I call their E.T. selves. I couldn't believe it! They toned the same as I did. I cried tears of recognition as I knew exactly what they were saying. In those few minutes, I realised how these tones were a universal language to express the energetic nature of the being that was doing the toning. It is simply saying, "I am and I am here." It is like an energetic signature. I was hooked. I wanted to know more. Mostly, I needed feedback on my ideas and they fitted the bill.
I borrowed all their literature and began to read. They talked about all that I knew, some consciously, some information that was just surfacing into my awareness. I listened to their channeled tapes and began to piece together even more information about what I was. The phrase that they used constantly and stills rings through me even now is, " You are the universe expressing itself at a single point."
This concept amazed me. I seemed to understand it on such a deep level that my rational mind was confused as to how I knew such a thing. I had known it all along since I was a very small child. When I was about four years old, I couldn't sleep; this was a constant problem for my parents. I am lying in bed, wondering about life. When I asked, " Who am I?" the answer was loud and clear. "You are a dot, a dot in space. You imagine all that you experience, pretend, sight, sound, taste, touch and hearing. Prove your parents and your world exist."
I understood it completely. I was, in fact, in my childish fashion talking about being God and creating all experience. It didn't phase me at the time; I took it on board as if it were the most natural thing to think. It was only later in my life that I realised what a profound concept to have, let alone for the likes of a four-year-old child who couldn't sleep.
The Unesseia took me upon an amazing journey of discovery. It was the discovery of the many layers of colours, and how each one held a certain frequency. I began to see certain colours and shapes occurring more and more in my life. The Unesseia made me aware of the ritualistic significance of everything that was coming into my life. They showed me how pictures, stones, ornaments, all have great teachings and secrets to tell. Everywhere I went, messages from spirit were appearing, calling, attracting my attention.
Iteesha As Iteesha opened her eyes and looked around her, she was amazed at the beauty of her Sphere, the home in which she had never been separate. Never before had she had the level of consciousness to comprehend the Sphere as separate from her. Living a transient existence, she had an always re-merged her consciousness into the sphere. Never before had she had this perspective.
She scanned the surrounding universe, dark in space. She was amazed at her godlike source, the Star, which could be seen in the far off distance. Her consciousness spread wide and far. Her newly created mind was capable of reading the entire local universe in detail. She was awe-struck; she took no delay in investigating all the wonderful creation that seemed to lie all around her.
Energy pulsations and waves of light swept past her, waves of Almighty Ocean. She stood in awe of all the wonders of all the sights and sounds she observed. She wished to share this newly found perspective with her loved ones, The Unesseia. With tears welling up in her eyes, she was overcome with grief as she realised that she could not return and remerge with the Sphere. She was separated forever from those she loved. Alone, she stood, staring out to space and for the first time, a thought rippled and pulsated from the core of her being out into the darkness that lay all around her.
The shock of seeing her very thoughts rippling out and affecting the surrounding space sent her heart racing and made her breathing shallow and nervous. Not sure whether to feel fear or exhilaration at her new found ability, she stood holding her breath, unable to decide how she should proceed. A murmur, a whisper, a message, a sign was coming from far off in space from her Source, the Star. The message could be felt deep within her heart. "Go forth and create new worlds and new beings like those before you."
I dreamed a strange dream. I was in this ancient Indian temple with a beautiful statue of Kali in pride of place. This woman pressed hard into my neck and I passed out. All went blue and I heard this voice say, " What is your name on your home planet? " I awoke saying, " Iteesha".
Even though I can see myself in all aspects that I have discovered, I hold Iteesha in my heart as the dearest. She moved me to tears every time she walked into my body. Her innocence, her grace, her loving presence was enough to make me swoon. She seemed to shimmer through my body. She resembled the misty blues and greens of her home planet; she was Soul aspect, now named. Her energy was cold and frosty. It made me catch my breath. She seemed to represent death to my physical form, being Soul energy.
Of course, my body found this difficult to handle. So, was it any wonder she would make me want to hold my breath and stare in disbelief. I became her for quite some months. I felt a level of sensitivity and vulnerability that was new and exciting. It was also very uncomfortable and frightening. Her perspective was one of constant reverence and honour to God. Everything about her was in prayer and praise to God.
She enabled me to firstly feel the intensity of the separation from, not only her and home planet, but also the severance from God. She made all my childhood yearnings to go home to the stars come back with force. She gave me an exciting level of imagination that I found so inspiring that I spent much of my time day dreaming about my home world and often went there in imagination. I must admit that people around me thought I was withdrawing from physical reality and were a little concerned about me.
Even though she encompassed all my body, I was disturbed to discover that she found the physical body and its organs somewhat of a mystery. I went through a rather disturbing period where I found the whole concept of having a physical body rather alien and disconcerting. I would peer down at my legs and think, "Oh yes, they are my legs." Through my interaction with
Iteesha, I was taught how I created my reality with pure loving intent. She taught me how to activate my crown chakra and reconnect myself to my true Soul Source.
She explained how she was a semi-physical being. She is an intermediate between the higher light realms and the denser dimensions below her. She is the aspect of self that is untainted and unstructured by denser levels of awareness. She expresses herself as the oneness of her world and galaxy in which she lives. I get a feeling that she and her kind, The Unesseia, are the etherical counterparts of the Sphere.
She is like The Elohim. She is like the breath of light and sound. Her energies fuse, penetrate the other selves, and give them the air to breathe. Her Source centre, the Sphere, Unesseia, is like a cosmic pump that breathes in and out God's breath. She can shape and mold herself into any self. She can penetrate expression and carry messages of light to all that encounter her messages. Her messages were transmitted to me in pictures and very intense emotions and feelings.
She is a dream weaver, weaving dreams as she flies in consciousness throughout her area of universal reality. Iteesha travels within her domain and like a wind that leaves ripples in the sand; she leaves lines that criss-cross and form a mighty complex matrix which is in the dimension below.
I had an incredible time integrating this aspect but I was so home sick that I found myself lying upon my bedroom floor. I felt so light, I put stones from around my plants on all my major chakras. Iteesha's energy moved into me and a voice said, "You have complained for long enough. You can go home. All you have to do is walk out of your body. Your body will die instantly you leave and you will go home. Try."
I lifted my dream body arm out of my physical. I knew I could do it. So I pondered the situation. All of a sudden a feeling of truth rippled throughout me and I realised that I had been a total drama queen and didn't want to leave at all. I felt such relief, I laughed out loud. All my guides around me laughed too. I had passed the test and again learned a worthy lesson. This helped me heal a great deal about being here in a human body.
Iteesha stood upon her Sphere, no longer able to re-merge herself with it. Sorrow began to ring through her as the urge to be surrounded by others like herself started to grow within the cells of her body. She began to think and imagine new dreams which rippled out into the darkness.
Stellar lines of thoughts criss-crossed and wove themselves together until a large weblike crystalline pattern hung like a snowflake in the darkness. As she looked upon this form, a new and exciting thought began to form in her mind. Could she awaken and activate this structure of her own thoughts? Could she breathe life into it and create life like those before her?
With the energy given to her from the Unesseia, her lifeblood, and her urge to create through love, she sent a thought. It was a thought so whole, so powerful, it carried her consciousness through the darkness and, as it hit upon the Web, it shattered into a thousand tiny pieces. It cascaded like showers of liquid light into the web, awakening it, giving it life. The Zeta were born.
Each Zeta, an idea, a dream, was given life from Iteesha's pure intent. Working as a whole unified mind, the Zeta's took the ideas that had been given from above and structured them into conceptual theories, concepts that would later become experimental dimensional experiences. They dreamed and created dimensional realities capable of housing beings connected to the Web as a whole, yet also individually experiencing themselves as unique and singular identities. The Web's strands twisted and wove the ideas together, adding to the pattern, creating a giant evolutionary ladder. This ladder held all the ideas, all the ingredients to create beings to live upon the worlds they had imagined.
Alloya had almond shaped eyes, eyes that strongly represented the
little greys or, as I'd rather refer to them, the Zeta. I had always been fascinated with the Zeta. I had strange dreams, dreams where I was Zeta on the home world. I felt like they were watching me. I must admit I thought I should be scared but I wasn't. They seemed friendly in an unemotional sort of way.
I found that whilst dancing to weird dark trance techno, they would enter my body. My body was fine with it as it felt strangely pleasant, even sexual, but my mind would disappear. I would literally be a Zeta. I could feel my perspective on the world changing. They seem to look upon reality and see the web-like structures, the pattern or blueprint that reality hangs upon. They channeled through me the following:
We can move, realign, and rearrange whole pictures of reality by understanding the workings of reality at a deep level. We rearrange it according to preset cosmic laws.
They exist on a very high mental plane. They let their emotional bodies enthrophy in order to achieve their state of mental agility. They do not appear to have emotional bodies. Their whole level of consciousness is very similar to a computer and can seem extremely alien to us because we experience deep levels of emotion. They are capable of time travel on an atomic level. They also use mind maps of the universe to travel great distances. It is very hard to understand them, as they are extremely alien to our way of thinking. They experience themselves as the 'WE', as we experience ourselves as the 'I'. If you tune into them. you will know what I mean.
Working as a 'WE' consciousness, they are singular and separate in form yet work as a whole mass mind, moving like a swarm of bees or a flock of birds. They sent my rational mind into absolute turmoil. Their whole way of looking at things was so radically different from my usual ego-based rational approach that I thought I was losing my mind. Worse still, perhaps I was being taken over by some weird, evil, alien entity.
Without an emotional body that I could recognise, they worked not unlike a huge intricate and highly complex computer system. Their whole nature works on a level above polarity, and without the comfort to me of their having an emotional body, they frightened the hell out of me. They saw nothing wrong with either good or bad experience. They moved me to see the inner workings of reality and how the mind creates realities around itself. These were mirror images of its conscious awareness. They told me that they were formulators of reality, taking inventive ideas from other dimensions above, and working them into intricate formulas that later manifested on denser dimensions as reality that could be perceived.
The Web exists on a dimensional reality that is slightly denser in form than The Unesseia. As far as my understanding will allow, the Zeta is a giant network of beings that exist in civilisations upon dense physical planets. They are quite close to humans as they are very close in our genetic makeup. However, their perspective, the way they look at reality, is very different to ours.
They seem to see reality as patterns, complex structures made of thought. Instead of experiencing reality and themselves as predominantly physical as we do, they see their world as layers upon layers of thought that are manifesting. They see everything as separate constructs, yet all intricately tied together as one synergised entity. They experience themselves as one whole mind made up of separate individual components functioning as one.
They showed me, by playful and creative example, how my physical reality was formed. They taught me how the many levels of our interaction are mirror experiences designed to allow us to see our true natures. They played with me, taking me on many mind warping reality shifts, allowing me to see how finely tuned the whole universal system was.
One of these incidents occurred when I was with a group of friends. The Zeta entered me more strongly than before. It was as if the right side of my body were Zeta and the left was my sense of 'I'. It was a very strange and a little frightening. I got to experience the disappearance of my sense of self. I was part of a giant 'WE' consciousness. I went through so many levels of fear, I could literally feel them rewiring my circuits in left side my brain.
They used a special form of communication that can only be described as binary code. My friend started to channel. The Zeta told me that she was talking about my sense of 'I' so that I could hear my truth. I listened to what she had to say. She was aware of what she was doing.
As I listened, I would hear truth and then she would talk but the words did not ring true. The Zeta said this is the truth and bullshit game. When she says your truth, then stand up, and when she tells you your bullshit, sit down. Without any control on my part, I had no choice but to do this It was if my body had been taken over. My friend said that she could see the Zeta in the right side of my body. It fascinated her. She was also completely aware of what I was going through as she was holding my integrity as Nikki or I could lose myself.
After some time, I began to get tired so I stamped my foot and said, " I don't want to do this any more. Can't I just have the feeling in my stomach or something." It was amazing. I could literally feel my stomach responding to the truth and going flat with the bullshit. To this day, I have used this as a gauge to weed out the truth.
Their energies were very strange and caused me to cry out in the strangeness of the sensations as they rewired my brain. I looked out and saw everything being an aspect of myself, a representation of some part of psyche and Spirit. It was very overwhelming.
Everywhere I looked, I could see aspects of myself. It was then that the Zeta said, "Close your eyes." I did. I could see loads of Zeta faces looking at me. They said, " It is at times like these that you close your eyes and know who you are." I immediately thought, 'I AM'.
As I did this, all the faces merged into one Zeta face and it was Alloya. I knew then that they were aspects of myself and I was one of them. I was indeed an alien. They taught me the significance of what your mind experiences as reality, and how we can all live in totally separate reality states.
The things I was experiencing should have been bizarre to the two boys in the room. When I apologised to them for being weird, they said they didn't see me as being weird at all. It was then that I realised the Zeta had completely altered my reality, and I was no longer on the same level as the two boys were.
I was to have many more encounters with the Zeta. They were the cosmic jokers in the pack. I spent many weird hours of amusement with them. They seemed to want to dance through me, a dance with such intricate hand movements. It allowed me to rearrange not only my own energy fields, but also the energy bodies of those around me. I realigned web-like structures in the mental plane allowing for creative and evolutionary happenings to occur. Reality shifts happened at parties, and social chats. All who experienced them, whether they were consciously aware of it or not, were moved by them. They had their perspectives on reality radically altered by their presence.
I used the Zeta's talents of working with the mental body to realign other people's brains in my healing sessions. This helped people remove what they called 'devolutionary mind states and patterns'.
I was fascinated by the dance. I could see myself making etherical patterns in the air. I was forming ideas to manifest on the physical plane. I realised that I was helping align our realities to the Zeta and was allowing others to experience them also. My friend was introduced to them at a party one night.
I watched as they entered her body. I saw their faces shimmer across her face. It moved me to tears. She then got up and began to dance the exact same dance. Together we were literally changing the energy of the room. What we in fact did was create a space so the angelic counter-parts could be introduced to their earthly partners. I was told that she and I had created the space.
Integrating my Zeta self was an incredible experience even though those around me thought I was losing it. I felt completely alien. The idea of being this physical body appalled me, as did the gender of sex. I referred to the body as 'The Nikki'. I would say things like " The Nikki wants a drink." Those around me found it very difficult to handle. I was at home totally. I must admit I lost it a little in the whole situation. I felt completely non-human and detached from my loved ones. It was only when the Zeta were totally integrated that I seemed human again. However, I felt that now I was Zeta plus.
When I had finished integrating the various aspects, I would be rewarded by something happening in my outside reality. I went to a party and was introduced to this guy. I just said, "Hello" and went off to dance. He knew absolutely nothing about me, and yet he said that from the time I met him, he had " The girl's an alien" going around and around in his head. It disturbed him so much that he told a mutual friend who later told me. What confirmation. ! I could no longer deny what I was becoming.
As the Zeta analysed those they imagined, they created a great gene pool of ideas. Some of their ideas failed and fell short of their purposes. Each one had its unique creative talent. Gathering all the best ingredients from each of their ideas, they spun together their ideas like silks of coloured light. Slowly the warp and the weft wove itself together into intricate patterns until a new form, a new creature, stood proudly before them. Alustra, The Dragon, was his name, a conceptual idea taking shape and form. Contained within it was a message that could be communicated through the idea that came from the highest source, the Star.
With eyes to see and ears to hear, Alustra's mind was powerful and wise, holding within it many secrets for those he encountered to discover. With scales of light to represent the many ideas that had created him and a voice of fire in which to sing his song, his voice could be heard ringing through the universe. With a tail to steer him and a pair of giant powerful-feathered wings to propel him, he set off on his magical journey, his quest in flight through space and time. The Zeta held their breath in awe as they saw him take to the air and fly in spirals out into the unknown darkness, seeking out information he could transmit back to be stored within the Web.
Alustra. A mighty dragon energy that represented the ley lines that flow throughout the universe. He taught me the magic in objects. Through his guidance, I realised that every action can be a part of a ritual if applied with intent.
Alustra is unlike the other entities I have experienced. They are based in one place, whereas Alustra seems to come from everywhere. He is a great cosmic dragon. He is a psychic, astral entity that exists on a realm that you could call imagination. He seems to live in a world of myths and legends where unicorns and the like exist side by side with ancient civilisations.
He operates on a level of higher mass consciousness which is where our archaic records are. Within this realm, are all records of past, present, and future realities. He is capable of time travel. He does this in the most amazing way; he recreates himself where he wants to be. He has a great awareness of cycles and movement. His energy helps ascend the etherical and astral bodies into higher light bodies. He is the activator of the Merkabar vehicle that allows you to consciously project yourself into any time or space.
Working with him, I saw the pattern in time. He taught me how to energetically decode DNA. He represented the aspect that records all the information of soul. He channeled through me energy that released karma and realigned people in soul agreement relationships.
Alustra allowed me to see the creative imagination energy at work in my reality. He danced around me for some time, hiding every time I thought I could see him, a mysterious and fascinating entity. He taught me how to see the plays that unfolded in my everyday awareness. By using my imagination, I could see a drama of cosmic significance in every interaction in my life. He showed me with stunning and amazing clarity how even though we like to think of lives as being past lives, they are, in fact, going on at the same time.
He taught me how to tap into myths and legends in the mass consciousness. I began to live many different times all in the same space. With Alustra's help, I learned how to decode the information stored within the DNA and release etherical implants that had been put there to hinder my spiritual growth. Whilst I was working very closely with him, my whole life seemed to grow and blossom into one great fairy tale.274 The Mission of the One Star
This is where 'The Story' began. I cannot tell it for it is not mine to tell. For my friend began to tap into this realm and we lived in the fairy tale together. She was indeed a dragon, too; she helped guide me to integrate this particular aspect. Let's just say that she began to write and draw the characters of a mighty story. It was an Atlantean story where all the members of our close friends were main characters. It wasn't like we chose them for each character; each person over a space of months would literally act our story symbolically in their life in the way they behaved and reacted to life. The symbolic nature made it a very creative and inspiring time.
I will never forget the night when Alustra decided to totally integrate into my body. I was at a party. It seemed so unreal. These parties were beginning to become very creative. I could see myself in other people. It was so obvious to me that they would represent different aspects of myself and channel information from their particular perspective.
Alustra flew in spirals in my mind's eye and then entered my body. Being Alustra, I could feel all my files, my records going back to God. It was explained to me how the aspect that was 'I' on the highest level was accessing my information and that I was the first gardener of creation to come home with the harvest.
It is at this point that I feel I need to explain something to you. I was living in a paradox. I was experiencing myself as all the different aspects and, yet, was also totally aware of myself, Nikki, experiencing it, too. I could see my friends being themselves but also representing different aspects of myself. How can I explain this further? It was as if two realities were going on in the same space.