asked my friend, and his friends, about death –
what happens when we die?
said that when a loving person dies, angels come
down to meet him, and they take him up –
gradually, at first, because it would be
unbearable for that person to be instantly exposed
what's inside of every person, the angels don't
have to prove anything by showing off. They know
what each of us needs, so they provide that. In
some cases it may be a heavenly meadow, and in
another, something else. If a person needs to see
a relative, the angels will bring that relative.
If the person really likes jewels, they will show
the person jewels. We see what is necessary for
our introduction into the spirit world, and those
things are real, in the heavenly, the divine sense.
gradually educate us as spirit beings, and bring
us into heaven. We grow and increase, and grow and
increase, and shed the concerns, desires, and base
animal stuff that we have been fighting much of
our life. Earthly appetites melt away. It is no
longer a struggle to fight them. We become who we
truly are, which is part of the divine.
happens to loving people, people who are good and
love God. They made it clear to me that we don't
have any knowledge or right to judge anybody else
– in terms of that person's heart relationship
to God. Only God knows what's in a person's heart.
Someone whom we think is despicable, God might
know as a wonderful person. Similarly, someone we
think is good, God may see as a hypocrite, with a
black heart. Only God knows the truth about every
will ultimately judge every individual. And God
will allow people to be dragged into darkness with
like-minded creatures. I have told you, from my
personal experience, what goes on in there. I
don't know from what I saw anymore than that, but
it's my suspicion that I only saw the tip of the
deserved to be where I was – I was in the right
place at the right time. That was the place for
me, and the people I was around were perfect
company for me. God allowed me to experience that,
and then removed me, because he saw something
redeeming in putting me through the experience. It
was a way to purge me. People who are not allowed
to be pulled into darkness, because of their
loving nature, are attracted upwards, toward the
never saw God, and I was not in heaven. It was way
out in the suburbs, and these are the things that
they showed me. We talked for a long time, about
many things, and then I looked at myself. When I
saw me, I was glowing, I was radiant. I was
becoming beautiful – not nearly as beautiful as
them – but I had a certain sparkle that I never
being ready to face the earth again, I told them
that I wished to be with them forever. I said,
"I'm ready, I'm ready to be like you and be
here forever. This is great. I love it. I love you.
knew that they loved me and knew everything about
me. I knew that everything was going to be okay
from now on. I asked if I could get rid of my
body, which was definitely a hindrance, and become
a being like them with the powers they had shown
said, "No, you have to go back."
explained to me that I was very underdeveloped and
that it would be of great benefit to return to my
physical existence to learn. In my human life I
would have an opportunity to grow so that the next
time I was with them I would be more compatible. I
would need to develop important characteristics to
become like them and to be involved with the work
that they do.
that I couldn't go back, I tried to argue with
them, and I observed that if I bear that thought
– the thought that I might wind up in the pit
again – I pled with them to stay.
friends then said, "Do you think that we
expect you to be perfect, after all the love we
feel for you, even after you were on earth
blaspheming God, and treating everyone around you
like dirt? And this, despite the fact that we were
sending people to try and help you, to teach you
the truth? Do you really think we would be apart
from you now?"
asked them, "But what about my own sense of
failure? You've shown me how I can be better, and
I'm sure I can't live up to that. I'm not that
of my self-centeredness welled up and I said,
"No way. I'm not going back."
said, "There are people who care about you;
your wife, your children, your mother and father.
You should go back for them. Your children need
said, "You can help them. If you make me go
back there are things that just won't work. If I
go back there and make mistakes I won't be able to
stand it because you've shown me I could be more
loving and more compassionate and I'll forget.
I'll be mean to someone or I'll do something awful
to someone. I just know it's going to happen
because I'm a human being. I'm going to blow it
and I won't be able to stand it. I'll feel so bad
I'll want to kill myself and I can't do that
because life is precious. I might just go
catatonic. So you can't send me back."
assured me that mistakes are an acceptable part of
they said, "and make all the mistakes you
want. Mistakes are how you learn."
long as I tried to do what I knew was right, they
said, I would be on the right path. If I made a
mistake, I should fully recognize it as a mistake,
then put it behind me and simply try not to make
the same mistake again. The important things is to
try one's best, keep one's standards of goodness
and truth, and not compromise those to win
I said, "mistakes make me feel bad."
said, "We love you the way you are, mistakes
and all. And you can feel our forgiveness. You can
feel our love any time you want to."
said, "I don't understand. How do I do that?"
turn inward," they said. "Just ask for
our love and we'll give it to you if you ask from
advised me to recognize it when I made a mistake
and to ask for forgiveness. Before I even got the
words out of my mouth, I would be forgiven – but,
I would have to accept the forgiveness. My belief
in the principal of forgiveness must be real, and
I would have to know that the forgiveness was
given. Confessing, either in public or in private,
that I had made a mistake, I should then ask for
forgiveness. After that, it would be an insult to
them if I didn't accept the forgiveness. I
shouldn't continue to go around with a sense of
guilt, and I should not repeat errors – I should
learn from my mistakes.
I said, "how will I know what is the right
choice? How will I know what you want me to
replied, "We want you to do what you want to
do. That means making choices – and there isn't
necessarily any right choice. There are a spectrum
of possibilities, and you should make the best
choice you can from those possibilities. If you do
that, we will be there helping you."
didn't give in easily. I argued that back there
was full of problems and that here was everything
I could possibly want. I questioned my ability to
accomplish anything they would consider important
in my world. They said the world is a beautiful
expression of the Supreme being. One can find
beauty or ugliness depending on what one directs
one's mind toward.
explained that the subtle and complex development
of our world was beyond my comprehension, but I
would be a suitable instrument for the Creator.
Every part of the creation, they explained, is
infinitely interesting because it is a
manifestation of the Creator. A very important
opportunity for me would be to explore this world
with wonder and enjoyment.
never gave me a direct mission or purpose. Could I
build a shrine or cathedral for God? They said
those monuments were for humanity. They wanted me
to live my life to love people not things. I told
them I wasn't good enough to represent what I had
just experienced with them on a worldly level.
They assured me I would be given appropriate help
whenever I might need it. All I had to do is ask.
luminous beings, my teachers, were very convincing.
I was also acutely aware that not far away was the
Great being, what I knew to be the Creator. They
never said, "He wants it this way," but
that was implied behind everything they said. I
didn't want to argue too much because the Great
Entity was so wonderful and so awesome. The love
that was emanated was overwhelming.
my biggest argument against coming back into the
world, I told them that it would break my heart,
and I would die, if I had to leave them and their
love. Coming back would be so cruel, I said, that
I couldn't stand it. I mentioned that the world
was filled with hate and competition, and I didn't
want to return to that maelstrom. I couldn't bear
to leave them.
friends observed that they had never been apart
from me. I explained that I hadn't been aware of
their presence, and if I went back I, again,
wouldn't know they were there. Explaining how to
communicate with them, they told me to get myself
quiet, inside, and to ask for their love; then
that love would come, and I would know they were
said, "You won't be away from us. We're with
you. We've always been with you. We always will be
right with you all the time."
said, "But how do I know that? You tell me
that, but when I go back there it's just going to
be a nice theory."
said, "Any time you need us we'll be there
said, "You mean like you'll just appear?"
said, "No, no. We're not going to intervene
in your life in any big way unless you need us.
We're just going to be there and you'll feel our
presence, you'll feel our love."
that explanation I ran out of arguments, and I
said I thought I could go back. And, just like
that, I was back. Returning to my body, the pain
was there, only worse than before."
Storm's near-death experience ends here.)
to life wasn't easy for Howard. In addition to his
physical problems, he had to face the usual array
of uncomprehending and insensitive responses to
his new spiritual condition. It began in the
hospital, he said.
states: "I felt this overwhelming sense of
love for everyone. I wanted to hug and kiss
everyone, but I couldn't even sit up. I would say,
'Oh you're so beautiful' to anyone and everyone. I
was the joke of the floor. People found it very
other near-death experiences, Howard's sense of
empathy expanded, as well as his compassion. He
could, he said, feel the emotions of others more
powerfully than his own. Howard decided to enter
the Christian ministry after his near-death
knew with total certainty that
everything was evolving exactly
the way it should and that the
ultimate destiny for every living
being is to return to the Source,
The Light, Pure Love." -
Juliett Nightingale, near-death
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